for pure information-

I'm afraid and I can't breathe
but I have to say-

So don't mind what I'm trying to say
It's for the better, like how peanut butter is better than just butter.
you're going to hate me and you're going to ask if you know me at all-
but.
contrary to popular belief
I'm out of your life and you're out of mine.

Well let's see-

You say I'm so insensitive, insensitive to the point of ignorance
that I cared about her more than you.
Now you don't know how it feels when
you see your mother taking down family pictures from the wall, now do you?
So I never put you first.
Well honey, good luck dealing with insecurities then
I'm supposedly in dire need of you and your nonsensical-ity?
I'm dependant and foolish and naive.
So I never listened to you?
Well for your joy in knowing, he was just a friend.
He, he, and him too.
And I never kept promises?
"I'll always be here to pick you up and brush you off."
that letter, those lies.
for realization purposes, I remember you walking away.

Honestly. I don't know why I fought so hard for you.